visit UTAR

today,me n my parents n kye yuin n her mother go visit utar..
after ask the information..i da gai know how much i nd use 2 study..
then we go find house..b4 that we hv a lunch la..
tat time,my cousin suddenly call me say they finding house there n mayb no room 4 me..
after heard this i feel sad or like got a big stone in my heart..
feel like if like tat i wan find room myself n make new friend at there..then i felt worry bcs i not gd in communication..i feel like wan start from begining..difficult 4 me
n i heard tat college u nd book time study..n if i no friend i feel alone lo..tis n tat make my moood very very down...
then my mum keep asking me this n tat n how is cousin finding the house a..wan join them anot..then i gv a bad mood 2 her say my cousin now finding with her friend if we go disturb very gan ga lo..i very sorry 2 her bcs voice not gd when tell my mum..
THEN,later my mood back normal dy..n i found a room quite gd..rm275..is it expensive ??
so i decide keep it 1st then sat go c agn c how...
aft back home..i hvn decide anything or think probably..my family jau ask me how n how nhow..ask about hostel n tat..this make my mood bad agn..then i show a bad mood 2 them agn dy..
i very very sorry..i know they ambil berat terhadap i...
bcs u all ask me many ques at the same time make me fan..
but i very apprieciate it..thx...my family
hope i can hv a gd life in utar soon..hope i can find a gd room..hope i will b gd..haha

visit UTAR

清明节

today,my family n i go cheng meng..
actualy i don hv feeling lo..we go bai a jor nbek gong..
ALthough ppl say this festival can gather relative 2gether n make our relationship closer..
But, at a jor there..we meet our 2 boy cousin..is my dad cousin children la..
we meet each other we juz smile..don no chat what..n i duno find wat topik chat with them 2..
as we meet each other 1 year 2-3 time..i feel like we no topik talk with each other..
we very diam at tat time..when watch the little children6 years old la..2 the things like 剥蛋壳n throw 2 the 泥土..i think dou when we were children we also do this 2gether n very hapi 1..n climb here n there..very fun..
now all has change~many cousin hu elder than me dy mature n all hv their own world include us..
sometime i very miss my childhood life at there bcs at ipoh i less cousin..n taiping many n very fun with them..
n..suddenly the elder say y we don chat a..we duno each other a..y like a stranger 1 ??
when they say these word make me feel more uncomfortable..actually no we dun wan chat is we duno chat wat mah..u say this make me more gan ga a...ai~~
i think mayb future we will less in touch dy.
hope wedon forget each other la n say hi when meet..xp

Upset

Dunno y..today my mood is totally down n down n down..
i feel like i wan alone n b quiet whole day..
u know y ???
1st..bcs my family seem like more worry than me about my future..they always ask me wat i wan study n where n other things..sometime make me annoying..
n today i feel like i gv a black face 2 my family..feel very sorry 2 them..
2nd..i feel like i still wondering whether my choice is right anot..my dad ask me r u sure wan utar..i dno say wat..i feel like now i study is hope tat when i come out tat cert can me find a gd job....so ???
3rd..i wonder y many schorlaship dateline is until end of this march.very rush n i m hurry find which is suitable 4 me..bu,most of the qualification wan english oral n writting gd..but my eng oni A- n 1119 oni 5c..feel like the chance getting the schorlaship is less than 50%..regret don put heart learn english..
4th..i also feel wat i plan mostly wont success 1..like~invite fren come out.started they say wan then later 1 by 1 say no mood dy..sometime i think y other fren can hang out happily we no..this make me upset many time..however,tis is their choice
5th..i rily not 舍得 my fren..now..all will 分道扬镳 go their next destination..mean we will berpisah dy..feel sad n xx(duno how 2 say)
in conclusion,today duno y all the feeling all things attack me at the same time make me sot dy....mood down n bek chek..
pl..faster recover n move 2 ur destination bah..
n 4 my friends(px,sy,yx,mc,ws,yl,cw,jy,wh,wl n ky),my,thx 4 accompany me in f4 n f5 n make me not feel alone in these 2 year..thx..tepuk tepuk terima kasih..haha

Stressful

1st time..i feel very stressful..
now is time 2 decide which college iwant study
my dream college is inti but is expensive
i think i wan study foundation in business..rm14xxx
n oni got march n july intake..if i miss march intake.i nd 2 choose july oni..
but feel like july 2 late..
if march this month muz register n pay rm8xxx(include hostel n register fees)
then,i go tell my parents..i feel like i gv them 'fu dan' dy..i feel like they cant afford the fees or mayb nd berjimat cermat 2 get this money..
i scare i waste their money..then i cry quietly after tell them..
now feel like got a big stone in my heart..
n i feel i crazy dy..always scare n think 2012 the world will end..m i 2 free n cause me think tat ??

Am i still a child ???

duno y..i feel like my parents still treat me like a child n control this or that..
i ady graduate in 2ndary school...it can b say is ady grow up..
y sometime still feel like i don hv tat freedom..
feel like now me just enjoy my school holidays..
sometime tis they make me feel angry..like i m 3 years old child..
go camp...i feel like my friends they very independent..know tis n tat..but me just like a ppl hu don know the real world
how ???

世界会末日吗 ？？

is the world will end in 2012 ???
there is no answer 4 it..

but..after wat had happen in japan..9.0 earthquake n sunami..is like wat we had seen in 2012..

duno y...i feel like i scare the world will end..i duno wat will happen on me tat time..

now many natural disaster happen everywhere non-stop..
this make me feel like human is very tiny n cant do anything..
wat we can do is just help the victim n save them escape from it..
Although malaysia is save but it cant confirm tat next time wont happen..

mayb i m 2 free now...mind is blank..always think these stupid question...worry ntg..
n i go ask my family u all worry the world end anot..then they say we cant expect wat will happen in the future..wat we can do is enjoy our life now..

Wat they say r right...mayb i 2 'dan xiao' n scare died gua..
opl..dun think 2 much la...think 2 much also no use wat..
b more optic n enjoy ur life..n must find something do 2 advoid think 2much..haha.

Pray 4 the japanese victims n hope they can rebuild their country soon..gammbateh

Y3sh..back from camp ady^^

i'm back..
actually..i dun hv the rindu feeling about tat place lo..bcs there don gv me any sweet memories..
the good memories just that i make a few good friends oni..
n i will miss them 2..
duno y..ay that time,some ppl cry bcs nd berpisah ady but i don...
is bcs they ec cry or wat..
anyway...this camp had past n i will rmb tat moment in my heart..
n now i must continue my journey..
just like the poem the road not taken..haha^^