Trustworthy信任n Commitment is IMPORTANT in LIFE

Actually i want write in mandarin..but i just know how 2 say do not know how write in mandarin..so now this post i write in English form la..haha

Actually,this happen few weeks ago,1 of my NS friend sms me ask whether i can top up for her dg number rm30 anot..n she say she will top up for me next time..
as she is my friend..i say OK n help her top up with my own money..
after few days, she ask me free to top up agn for 2nd time..
the reason she say is she now at hill dun hv place to top up..
n she say she will gv back me on 29 September..
then i trust her n top up for her 4 the 2nd time..
so now total she hutang me is rm90..then i say 1 month top up for me 1 time..so she should top up me for 3 month..
but,now dy 6 of October..1 week after the date she should top up for me..
this make me 对她的信任度越来越低。。
not i don want to trust her..
n she gv me geh reason 越来越假。。make me not so trust her anymore..

on 29 n 30..she say the shop near her house close dy..cnt help me top up..then she say Sunday top up for me..i say OK
on Sunday..she say she juz finiz work n shop close dy..n her friend will help me top up..
i say ok agn..i trust her..
but..until yesterday..i ask her to top up for me agn..she say her friend dy top up..but today 5/10 oni can receive..
then i think 'HAR'.. Digi top up not pay dy jau will receive soon a..didn't u lie me ???
then i say ok..but now dy 6/10 dy..y i didn't get the $$ like wat she say ??

y she still hvn top up for me ?
this make me not so trust her anymore..really..
y !!
Not i dun wan trust u..is u didn't do wat u promise me..
if u cnt pay back for this few week or got $$ problem nd pay back me later u should tell me..i won't force u pay now..
can rm 10 rm 10 top up for me..
or gv me a date when u really can top up for me..
this I will 体谅 U !!
not always say will top up this few days but in the end NO !!!

If i m a rich person..u got $$ problem nd my help I can help..
but i am not !! i m not a rich person..n RM60 is much for me..this can b my 1 week pocket money in university life !!

Moreover, ur action make me feel u dun wan top up for me..
like sometime when I call u y u dun answer my call..
y i sms u 'y u hvn top up for mr' u didn't gv an explanation for me ??
u always like that make me don wan trust u anymore..
make me feel rm90 cnt claim back agn !!!
b4 tat, i really really treat u as my friend n I trust u will gv me back..
But now..NO MORE 信任 on u..
plz dun blaim me..don blame me y i always rush u to top up for me..
is u urself make me feel like tat..as RM90 is not a small $$ for me．．

wat can i say now is if i still don receive the dg reload $$..i will say tat i use rm60 buy 2 lesson
N, from here i get a leason is ..
don't simply borrow money for the 1 who not so close or not so familiar with..if want borrow make sure is the 1 you can trust on..
Another lesson is..
朋友之间的承诺是很重要的~~
答应的事一定要做到！！失信的话就会使别人不再信任于你了 ！！

Confidence..i need u !!

today, i moody agn..
i duno y i become so moody since after graduate in secondary school..
almost always face by same problem !!
n i feel a sentences saw in fb is right..
'the most big lies is u lie urself'
this is truth..i always say u will hv friends soon 2 comfort myself..
but after a few day i moody agn bcs the same problem.
is bcs i cnt fit in new environment ?
i feel scare..i scare alone..
now i try fit in my new life in utar but..stil face some problem..
i feel like now is like my F1 situation..
don't have much friends..
Y a ?
px say we must brave 2 make friend..
i try..but..
when c other ppl a gang or hv some friend always together 1..i feel jealous..
bcs i still cnt find it..
sometime heard they go where hang out..i feel like i m a 'ju wai ren'
TT..HOW ?? u know tis make me more susah hati anot !!
i always dream 2 hv this kind of life but y ?
now waiting the week 2 arrange my new timetable 4 sem-2
i still wonder i will follow hu ?
or make my own timetable n mix with new classmates ?
duno..i juz scare alone..i worry next time in the class all a gang dy me alone..
is bcs my face problem ?? my look moody look ?
duno ?
god..didn't u heard my voice ?? my wish ?
i need u

UTAR life part 2

Finally today finiz my Maths mid term test..
omg..i fail 2 do log agn..maths i always wrong on log..8 marks gone
the result i think can pass oni..can get A anot i duno..

Although finiz maths test dy but still feel stress..
think about next few week become busy n busy..oh no
week 6 speaking test
week 7 econ n account test , pass up radio play skrip
week 8 maths n critical thinking test
week 9 pass up econ n acc assignment
then start presentation
then nearly week 14 jau nd faster book a good tine table
start busy

but, me now stil in a relax mood..duno y..or a moody mood ??
i easy effect by other things..this cause me always can't concentrate on study

OPL..u cannot b like tat lo..
if always like tat also cant help u anything 1
juz b urself l..Natural la..
the things is urs 1 will b urs..wont gone away..
don always envy ppl so much..u will suffer or sad
now,the most important thing is ur study..don't dissapointed ur family
faster do ur assignment,study,do tutorial homework..
dont always on9..

u muz do well in utar..muz..
so prepare now..+oil..
now muz catch up on ur study..dont gv other thing effect u..

try ur best in UTAR..^^

Star Wlk 2011^^

19june is starwalk day..haha..
meet many secondary school friends on tat day..h@pi.hehe
i miss them so much

early in the morning,there is a tracfic jam when going to stadium..
i heard ppl say this year more than 10000 participants..wau !!
i think break tis year record dy..

tat day the connection in stadium is very bad !!
i call n sms 2 yx n other fren 2 meet 2gether also difficult..
always show 'network is bc'...lol

lastly i found yx,ky, sy n sparkle..
started we plan walk 2gether geh..
but..on the way...sparkle saw her band member then decide walk with them..
then,ky walk very fast n force us walk faster bcs she worry cnt reach the finish line on time n canot get the cert..so she keep on walk n walk n walk without slow down or rest..crazy a bit....
so me n yx pisah with ky n sy dy bcs we cannot walk as fast as her..
pity 2 sy bcs ky pegang sy hand n walk with her..
mean sy cannot rest...

on the way,we saw ozz n twh walk 2gether..sweet dao..
1 100plus share share drink..pegang tangan 2gether when walk..hehe
go say hi 2 wh n talk a while oni...dun wan b a light bulb disturb them..haha
we also saw px...hapi..
she is taking competition 1 so her journey more longer..10km..while we take non-competition juz 7km
then we go say hi 2 her oni..didn't chat as she try 2 win the competition

finally,we reach the finiz line on time..b4 9am reach..
both of us also get the cert^^
then we go hv a free drink like milo n 100plus..
omg...many ppl lo..wait such a long time oni can get the drinks..
while waiting we also saw jy,my,ws,kai yuan n other secondary school mates..hapi

this year stakwalk is fun^^
i like it..
through tis activity can meet old n good friends who u cannot meet all the time..
however..1 thing i regret is i didn't take photo with them..i wan take some photo
as memory 1..but no time do so..ai~~
nvm..i hope next year starwalk all of them also got takepart then can take photo..haha

Careless geh me..==

duno y..when i was a child until now...me always is a careless person..
hate it..
today,i cum back 2 kampar from ipoh..
is very rush today bcs after i go saloon wash face..then go eat pizza with my aunt family..then hurry go novel hurt c got secondhand book anot..
then cum back home hurry pack up my thing to transfer 2 kampar..

unluckily,when i reach 2 kampar..i oni know tat i forget bring many things !!!
oh xxxx..
1st..i reach kampar i oni know i wear my home slipper cum..not the shoes i wear back 2 ipoh..
2nd..i forgot bring a pair of shoes which i decide wear 2 college..luckily stil got 1 here
3rd..i 4got bring my f5 +maths notes 4 revision..i put it on my table forgot put in my bag
4th..i forgot bring some cup mee which my mum had brought this morning..
5th,,i forget photostat a note although is not so important yet..

omg..y i so young jau always forget tis n tat..
nd c doctor dy..
ai~~from now on i muz record all things tat i wan do on a note book..must !!
to reduce my careless mistake..

n,tis week start my 2nd week in kampar lo..this week nd present my logo..but i stil hvn think dou wat i wan draw...allehluya
muz study now dy..all in eng..all bcum more difficult..muz prepare..if not exam cnt reach 3.0 cgpa..
gambateh 4 myself..xp
dun b careless agn..opl

3/6/2011

today is my 5th day in utar/kampar..
now start sesuai here geh life dy..but stil i miss ipoh..haha
here,i stil hvn make any new friend..but nvm...i know it nd time..

today, i hv dinner with my cousin..wen jing n wooi shin..
the meal i order quite large..hampir cnt finiz it..
then we hv a nice chat la...i think..
after finiz the dinner..we decide went 2 a shop pin our notes..
but,there is 2 many ppl printing or can say they got a lot of notes 2 print..
we cnt wait so we decide print tomolo.

when we on the way back home..we saw siew min n kai qing..haha
actually i dun saw them lo..is they say hi i oni know..pai seh
bcs i idn't saw thwy sitting there..

when back home..me n ws clean our room..haha..floor too many hair n dirts..
sweep,mop the floor...now the room look more clean n selesa...haha..love it..
thx ws bcs she do more..hehe..me juz help..

thx wenjing n ws today..haha

new life in kampar.

today is my 2nd day in utar...didn't kira orientation la
now i stil cnt biasa here geh life..
sometime feel very stress or sometime lonely..
bcs i stil dun hv new friend in utar
mayb i very 'rush' or hurry wan make new friend la..
now i stil hvn meet a new friend which is same favourite with me..
i told my friend..she tell me dun 2 rush 2 find friend..b patient..u wil find her/he soon..now oni started school oni..
she r right n i know it..now i nd juz time..cnt worry 2 much..
worry 2 much ..more difficult 2 find friend

my roomate is ws^^
so me got a parter..so not lonely..
but,we r not same course..so we cnt always together..
so smtime we juz can hv dinner with her n other friends oni..

now i in utar also juz very close with ws,wai sze,mable,lee thung la..
i know a bao 2..but,mayb me n her dun hv same topic 2 talk..so we less communicate..
but me n she is ok la..

another thing is...now all in eng !!
although i dy exprct it but now i stil cnt afford..
all nd do byself..notes also 2..
not like 2ndary school at all..
wau..now i nd 2 do hard in eng..my eng is worst..omg..
so,juz can wish gd luck 2 myself n can pass my exam soon

half bad half good day 20/5/2011

today,i got 2 news...1 is good n 1 is bad..

wat is the bad news ??
is about my new room in kampar..
today go check in...started is happy ..but after tat no..many case happen !!
many rules nd follow under danish management..a little ma fan...
some rules my mum feel no gd..
then,go there i oni know the rental fees start charge when we check in..so mean i nd pay extra 12 days rental fees...
tis make my mum feel 'mu dei' bcs we don live in..feel like if the rules is like tat me can move later then no nd pay extra 12days rental fees..
then we terpaksa pay lo..
3rd..the worst 1 !! is tat my room is not as same as the show house ic c..although is tsing hua A2 ..but got some different !!
tis make my mood down !!
bcs my dad dun wan me slp under the 'tiang' wall..so i find the room dun hv this n i choose a2 lo..bcs show house look ok 1 ..didn't slp under tiang !!!
but in the end..duno y my room also got the 'tiang' wall..
bcs i c the showhouse not like tat 1 lo...
then my dad face chance..mum 2..make me xxx a !!!
y so unlucky 1..
then aft move...look ok oni..
hope wooi shin can accept n biasa..
space left ok oni..
very sorry 2 her..
4give me..

The good news is..
my dad finally agree buy me a laptop^^
we go pc fair do research..
finally, i choose ASUS A43SV。。
funtion ok..like it..
but next friday oni can get it la..
thx him very much..
bcs laz time he say later oni buy 4 me..make me upset..
bcs i feel like if go kampar no entertaiment night boring..
but, finally he agree buy 4 me..
thx dad

j card day

Big shock today

how 2 say leh~~
today is the 1st time feel like the time pass so faz~~
b4 tat..i always c the watch wat time now bcs juz stand there..damn boring
today,suddenly the brands manager come..ask me how 2 promote..
omg !! i 口吃 a !!!
Then,the manager say nvm..n say 2molo got kl manager or wat la cum check..wan me do the best lo..n teach me how promote..
OMG !! feel scare n stress leh..
bcs tis is my 1st job a..n i juz work few days oni..
n when i face 2 customer or wan promote..i mostly will 口吃1..
ai~~
then,my grandma say dun worry 2 much..u juz work few day not 4ever..wrong jau takeit as experience..
she is right..worry more mistake more..
however,
still a little worry tomolo..n tomolo nd + stok..also my 1st time..
aleluya~~
gd luck 4 tomolo bah..

Promoter

How 2 say leh..
erm~~
ytd,i work at jusco as a promoter ..
tis is my 1st part time job..
actually tis job is JY work 1..bcs f6 start school dy
so i juz ganti n help JY 4 4days la..b a brands promoter..haha
started...i very worry..bcs i dun hv working experience..
n..i scare i cnt handle..n call JY a few time ask probably how 2 do it..
then jy say dun worry..weekdays less ppl buy..no nd add stok..juz stand there promote
then, ytd morning start work..
from 12pm-9pm..
got a salesgirl teach me how 2 do lo..
aft know all these,i start work
if stok enough, my job juz stand day wait customer..
actually ntg 2 do..
juz stand..
stand there wait customer buy or promote 2 customer oni..
ai~
stand there whole day..rest 1 hour..
sienz~~
sometime chat with aunty..ntg do..
nasib baik tat 1st day work got ppl buy brand la..
ntg happen..
back home oni 1 word..TIRED !!
slp early ytd..didn't touch pc..
slp until today 11am..haha..
now i oni know tat tis job is boring n tired job..
i rela bcome a waitress serve customer than b a promoter..haha^^
tomolo nd go work agn..+oil 2 myself..hehe

Jogging with YL

Today go jogging with YL..
quite relax n happy bcs long time no c her dy
although juz she n me also ok la..
chat with her a lots of things sambil walk..
we total walk 3 big round at Pologround^^
but hor..mayb we chat alots of topiks..
i feel like i talk 2 much..haha
ask 2 many thing
chat 2 manytopic
got a little 难消化 after chatting..haha
mayb me 鸡婆lo..hehe
but anyway..chat with her very enjoy^^
thx her alot ^^

blur blur de me

today,i go bank in $$ 4 utar..
so,i confirm utar dy lo..
duno wat is the feling..i juz feel like i stil like a child..
today,many thing stil nd help from parents..feel like i m 温室里的小花..or a 宅女..
now,i started prepare clothes or thing which nd at utar..
but,actually i feel like ntg nd bring..juz clothes ..

n,suddenly i miss my friend so much..
long time don c them but difficult 2 meet with them all..
bcs they preparing their f6..

wat wrong with me ??
these day i always blur blur 1..

is time 2 prepare lo

actualy,
wat should i prepare leh ??
now,my f6 friend start prepare their study dy..
me..stil like blur at home..
although 30 may will start my new life in utar..
but i stil duno wat i nd 2 prepare..
the thing i oni know is i nd laptop lo
haha..bcs i dy addicted on9 lo
cannot 1 year without on9..haha..sot leh ??
then,i nd clothes lo..
then,wat i nd prepare next ??
the most important thing is money lo..
all nd $$
the world is no money no talk geh..
gv some suggestion bah..
i duno wat should i do..feel like stuck dy..

失落的感觉

用华语写吧~~
今天，我不知为何心里闷闷的~~
好像有个石头似的~~有种失落的感觉~~
不知是不是在家太空闲了~~一直想着有的没的~~
慢慢的~~
我有这样的感觉是因为我和朋友真的要各奔前程了~~~
之前，他们都还没开课~~虽然不能一直约会但还可上网或手机聊天~~
但，
因为他们读中六的就快要开课了~~
到时一定开始忙碌了~~
要开始他们新的旅程了~~
可能没时间聊天了~~
本以为我会比他们早读一两个礼拜~~
现在换成他们早过我~~
让我觉得我是最空闲的了~~
我是不是傻了~sot ??
haha
而我，
30may 要去utar study 了~~
去新的环境读书~~
有点担心~~
因为我很内向~~
我人很闷下~~
不知找什么话题将~~
跟旧朋友也是一两年才熟的~~
╮(╯▽╰)╭
脑袋最近空空的~~想着废的东西~~
希望在新的环境认识到朋友啦~~
希望不会寂寞啦~~
希望在哪有好的开始啦~~
因为好的开始是成功的一半~~（很废leh）
期待及等待~~

Laptop

hmm~~
end of may i wan go utar lo..
n now...i'm thinking 2 buy a laptop..
but,i duno wan buy wat type of laptop..my bajet is around rm2500 oni..
but agn,when i tell my mum she say nd so expensive meh..can use jau ok lo..omg !!
n,mayb affect by friend..i wan a toshiba laptop..they say this brand good..
n,after ask my cousin opinion..she say now normal should hv i5,500gb hardisk,1gb graphic n 4 gb ram..
however,i c the toshiba laptop price..my bajet mostly is i3 or 320 gb hardisk or 2gb ram oni..how ???
now depend on my dad la..i think he will ask his friend opinion gua..
n,got wat brand is as good as toshiba n got the function i wan ?
post a comment here la^^

Addicted using PC lo

now,i evryday also wan use pc dy...without it i feel boring lo....slp or tv..
but, i use pc nd permision !! feel like no freedom a bit !!
y !!!!
y ppl like my age use pc anytime they wan me no ??
N now..bcs my bro get scold i also nd offf pc !!
feel unfair a !!!

Moody day 4 me

Today is moody day 4 me..
duno y
although today i receive the letter from utar dy..
i dun hv any feeling
i oni know my feeling is down oni
i feel like i stil hv many thing hvn done or prepare but duno wat is it.
n..
i feel like my temper bcum worst dy..
i feel like sometime use a rude voice reply my family ans...feel sorry 2 them..
n..i bcum 没耐心..
n..
i feel my life is boring..
wake up -> eat -> pc/ tv -> eat -> pc/ tv -> slp
bored bored bored
i feel like i 不知不觉失去主见。。
so how...wat is the problem ??
duno..hope can find the answer soon~

a car accident..TT

Today is sultan birthday..but is a bad luck 4 me。。TT
today,after having breakfast with family~
my aunty n i go jusco shopping..n tat time i driving 2 there..so hapi^^
in jusco..i finding the car park upstair...finding n finding~
when i saw a place...i jau park it lo..
but~~dunno y i so careless n stupid !!
when park the place dy ok duno y i go tekan minyak !!!
until i langgar the car in front 2 times !!! OMG !!
Y i so careless !!! y i so stupid !! Y i didn't pay attention when drive !!
y minyak n break also can tekan salah !!
tat time i terkejut n worry n cry..nasib baik oni my car in front rosak..the car i lanngar didn't rosak !!
if not jau cham lo !!
when my dad cum..i thought he will scold me badlyscold y i so careless..
but.he didn't..he juz say take it as a lesson..
then,when back home i thought my family will also say me y so careless..repair car nd waste money again..
but, they didn't..they juz say take it as a lesson..
this make me more sad n 内疚..make me more hate myself..
ai~~y y y ???
tell me y~~~y i so careless n didn't pay attention ??
ai~~~suan la..listen 2 my family ..take it as a lesson..
next time don't tekan salah..n drive slowly~~
rmb a~~opl

UTAR ??

i think i m a 很容易动摇的人。。
after read a note about the lifestyle in utar..
i not sure that note is real anot but it dy effect me some..
many ppl say utar quality not bad but now looks like dy change
duno y..
i feel like if quantiti increase quality will decrease..quantiti decrease quality oni increase..is tat true ?? duno~~
hope i had make a right choice la

Bored

Duno y agn...after settle all study problem like hostel or form..
now my life is very boring...everyday stay at home on9 n on9..
feel like bcum fat dy n like a 'zai nv' dy~~
feel like my brain dy stuck 4 a month~~
how how how ???
wat can i do ???

feel jealous n envy

haha..juz now go visit other ppl blog。。
wau~~
all their blog r so nice n creative la。。
bside writing their diary also got song..many beautiful pic/background or let ppl gv comments。。。
this make me feel a little envy（羡慕）。。not（妒忌）。。hahaha@@
bcs i feel like my blog is juz look simple..ntg else bside my feelings
n..i duno they use how much time 2 create their blog n how 2 hv these gadgets。。i guess they use much time gua.
i like 2 put all these gadgets into my blog but duno how。。@@
bsides,when i wan decorate my blog..i start feel lazy dy..duno start from where..@@
so how ???
"when can i hv a nice blog..haha
depands on me lo..right ??
i think c which time i got mod lo..
cnt envy so much lo..right ??
muz do it urself lo..right ??"
so now 1 of my matlamat is~~hv a nice blog lo。。。hehe

Hostel problem !!!!!!

today is utar open day..i n my 2 fren n also my dad go ask the information lo..
then i dy decide study there n pay registration fees..
NOW, the oni problem now is hostel problem !!!!
actually,my hope is can stay with fren la...then will not alone or scare lo..
but,some of my friend stil hvn make decision wan 100% study utar anot..tis make me feel worry like..'if we dcide live 2 gether..then suddenly say dun wan me how'..like make me no 'an quan gan'..
n i think if they stil hvn make decision i wan stay with my cousin geh..but that room rm275..started think price is ok la..later feel like a little expensive..bcs think sou sheng huo fei at least 1 month rm 300 leh..+rm275 +electric n water bil leh..mayb 1 month jau rm600+ lo..but gd is sure got partner la^^
then,if my parents stil dun wan bcs expensive..i muz find another n live with new friend lo..this make me worry more lo...bcs no friend or my friend live another place...wan find them a little far..
so..wat should i do ??? got miracle can help me find a gd room n with friend..
actually i hope my friend also study utar with me la..but i cnt force them 1..bcs later halfway they don like utar they sure blame us 1..so now i oni can wait their reply c wan anot..xp
today,i rily very thx my dad bcs accompany us whole day..i know he very care me n try help me find a gd room..although hvn sure..thx
now my big hope is find dou a gd room n woth friend..pls..let my hope come truth..^^

visit UTAR

today,me n my parents n kye yuin n her mother go visit utar..
after ask the information..i da gai know how much i nd use 2 study..
then we go find house..b4 that we hv a lunch la..
tat time,my cousin suddenly call me say they finding house there n mayb no room 4 me..
after heard this i feel sad or like got a big stone in my heart..
feel like if like tat i wan find room myself n make new friend at there..then i felt worry bcs i not gd in communication..i feel like wan start from begining..difficult 4 me
n i heard tat college u nd book time study..n if i no friend i feel alone lo..tis n tat make my moood very very down...
then my mum keep asking me this n tat n how is cousin finding the house a..wan join them anot..then i gv a bad mood 2 her say my cousin now finding with her friend if we go disturb very gan ga lo..i very sorry 2 her bcs voice not gd when tell my mum..
THEN,later my mood back normal dy..n i found a room quite gd..rm275..is it expensive ??
so i decide keep it 1st then sat go c agn c how...
aft back home..i hvn decide anything or think probably..my family jau ask me how n how nhow..ask about hostel n tat..this make my mood bad agn..then i show a bad mood 2 them agn dy..
i very very sorry..i know they ambil berat terhadap i...
bcs u all ask me many ques at the same time make me fan..
but i very apprieciate it..thx...my family
hope i can hv a gd life in utar soon..hope i can find a gd room..hope i will b gd..haha

visit UTAR

清明节

today,my family n i go cheng meng..
actualy i don hv feeling lo..we go bai a jor nbek gong..
ALthough ppl say this festival can gather relative 2gether n make our relationship closer..
But, at a jor there..we meet our 2 boy cousin..is my dad cousin children la..
we meet each other we juz smile..don no chat what..n i duno find wat topik chat with them 2..
as we meet each other 1 year 2-3 time..i feel like we no topik talk with each other..
we very diam at tat time..when watch the little children6 years old la..2 the things like 剥蛋壳n throw 2 the 泥土..i think dou when we were children we also do this 2gether n very hapi 1..n climb here n there..very fun..
now all has change~many cousin hu elder than me dy mature n all hv their own world include us..
sometime i very miss my childhood life at there bcs at ipoh i less cousin..n taiping many n very fun with them..
n..suddenly the elder say y we don chat a..we duno each other a..y like a stranger 1 ??
when they say these word make me feel more uncomfortable..actually no we dun wan chat is we duno chat wat mah..u say this make me more gan ga a...ai~~
i think mayb future we will less in touch dy.
hope wedon forget each other la n say hi when meet..xp

Upset

Dunno y..today my mood is totally down n down n down..
i feel like i wan alone n b quiet whole day..
u know y ???
1st..bcs my family seem like more worry than me about my future..they always ask me wat i wan study n where n other things..sometime make me annoying..
n today i feel like i gv a black face 2 my family..feel very sorry 2 them..
2nd..i feel like i still wondering whether my choice is right anot..my dad ask me r u sure wan utar..i dno say wat..i feel like now i study is hope tat when i come out tat cert can me find a gd job....so ???
3rd..i wonder y many schorlaship dateline is until end of this march.very rush n i m hurry find which is suitable 4 me..bu,most of the qualification wan english oral n writting gd..but my eng oni A- n 1119 oni 5c..feel like the chance getting the schorlaship is less than 50%..regret don put heart learn english..
4th..i also feel wat i plan mostly wont success 1..like~invite fren come out.started they say wan then later 1 by 1 say no mood dy..sometime i think y other fren can hang out happily we no..this make me upset many time..however,tis is their choice
5th..i rily not 舍得 my fren..now..all will 分道扬镳 go their next destination..mean we will berpisah dy..feel sad n xx(duno how 2 say)
in conclusion,today duno y all the feeling all things attack me at the same time make me sot dy....mood down n bek chek..
pl..faster recover n move 2 ur destination bah..
n 4 my friends(px,sy,yx,mc,ws,yl,cw,jy,wh,wl n ky),my,thx 4 accompany me in f4 n f5 n make me not feel alone in these 2 year..thx..tepuk tepuk terima kasih..haha

Stressful

1st time..i feel very stressful..
now is time 2 decide which college iwant study
my dream college is inti but is expensive
i think i wan study foundation in business..rm14xxx
n oni got march n july intake..if i miss march intake.i nd 2 choose july oni..
but feel like july 2 late..
if march this month muz register n pay rm8xxx(include hostel n register fees)
then,i go tell my parents..i feel like i gv them 'fu dan' dy..i feel like they cant afford the fees or mayb nd berjimat cermat 2 get this money..
i scare i waste their money..then i cry quietly after tell them..
now feel like got a big stone in my heart..
n i feel i crazy dy..always scare n think 2012 the world will end..m i 2 free n cause me think tat ??

Am i still a child ???

duno y..i feel like my parents still treat me like a child n control this or that..
i ady graduate in 2ndary school...it can b say is ady grow up..
y sometime still feel like i don hv tat freedom..
feel like now me just enjoy my school holidays..
sometime tis they make me feel angry..like i m 3 years old child..
go camp...i feel like my friends they very independent..know tis n tat..but me just like a ppl hu don know the real world
how ???

世界会末日吗 ？？

is the world will end in 2012 ???
there is no answer 4 it..

but..after wat had happen in japan..9.0 earthquake n sunami..is like wat we had seen in 2012..

duno y...i feel like i scare the world will end..i duno wat will happen on me tat time..

now many natural disaster happen everywhere non-stop..
this make me feel like human is very tiny n cant do anything..
wat we can do is just help the victim n save them escape from it..
Although malaysia is save but it cant confirm tat next time wont happen..

mayb i m 2 free now...mind is blank..always think these stupid question...worry ntg..
n i go ask my family u all worry the world end anot..then they say we cant expect wat will happen in the future..wat we can do is enjoy our life now..

Wat they say r right...mayb i 2 'dan xiao' n scare died gua..
opl..dun think 2 much la...think 2 much also no use wat..
b more optic n enjoy ur life..n must find something do 2 advoid think 2much..haha.

Pray 4 the japanese victims n hope they can rebuild their country soon..gammbateh

Y3sh..back from camp ady^^

i'm back..
actually..i dun hv the rindu feeling about tat place lo..bcs there don gv me any sweet memories..
the good memories just that i make a few good friends oni..
n i will miss them 2..
duno y..ay that time,some ppl cry bcs nd berpisah ady but i don...
is bcs they ec cry or wat..
anyway...this camp had past n i will rmb tat moment in my heart..
n now i must continue my journey..
just like the poem the road not taken..haha^^

Hapi N3w Y3ar

today,i invite my friend come 2 my house n we gamble...
they give me a nickname a dy..is 'Lan Du'!!!!
A ugly n not nice name..i very n very don like it...but if they joke only i don care la...don always say me like tat jau ok...
n, i lose a lot....although middle i got win but at last i also lose...
a little bit sad la but after a while feel nvm..new year 1 year 1 time only..not always..n sure got ppl win n lose 1...all hapi jau ok lo...
I very 'WEI DA' leh..haha
n b zhuang is very not good...ec lose n all also hope u lose 1....like u r a 'cai sheng ye'...hahahaha
so,next time i don wan b zhuang lo...haha
today is quite a good day 4 me...all friend can gather 2gether..i think every year must held a gathering like this...
hope they also hv fun n not boring at my house la...

大年初一-rabbit y3ar

today is 大年初一。。。but,4 me is stil like normal day..the oni different is many fod eat oni..
now me n all my cousin ady grow up n hv our own world...bcs me less meet 2gether..i feel like our relationship not as good as b4..
this year i go 拜年..oni say hapi new year 2 the elder n get angpau n eat oni..i don saw my cousin..they all go out hv fun ady..
i don blame them..is juz like when i was child...i so hapi 2 go taiping 拜年 n play with them...tat time very fun n i always 期待go there enjoy..
but now...all has change..bcs we not close ady..n don hv a topic talk 2gether..n i go there is boring..juz watch tv..
however..i stil hope our relationship won so tawar like water although we ady grow up..hope we stil keep in touch 2gether^^
N wish my cousin hapi new year^^

A New Year-Rabbit year^^

Today is a new year for every chinese ppl...haha..
gongxi gong xi..
but..like laz year..i stil don hv the new year mood..n i think tat if got gambling oni like new year lo...haha....long time don play mahjong ady..miss it
n ytd.....chinese 30 night..i do housework whole day..damn tired...back from camp stil nd clean house..==
n this time clean house use all my energy...use 3 hour mop floor..sweep floor..n use whole ..
afternoongelap this n tat...on no..
ut after finiz cleaning very hapi la..haha....a new year a nice enviroment..no dirty in my house..haha..n design my house leng leng..got 成就感。。hoho
Now is a new year lo...n i ady graduate..n ns-ing..
hope this year can bring me gd luck...let me hv a direction wat n where should i continue my journey^^
hope i wont waste the time do ntg but use the time do meaningful things^^
this is 1 of my wish^^
other is secret..hehe..if say out jau no use or wont come true...
HAPI CNY 2 all my fren

Go NS lo...

Actually,now i really don hv the mood go NS lo...
Duno y...i feel like i change alots !!!
i change bcum so panas baran...easy angry..
i feel very sorry 2 my family..
i will try my best change it..
N..i feel like my reltionship with my dad not so good like b4 ady..
duno y ??
these few day got some arguement with my dad..hope all will 4got soon..sorry...dad
i dun hv the 'brave' 2 say sorry in front u..so say here la..^^
Go ns lo...hope my place is nice..
n i must always bcareful !!!
i must not careless !!!!
hope god of messy protect me....i must trust myself that i can do all my best at there !!!
+oil !!!!