Stressful

1st time..i feel very stressful..
now is time 2 decide which college iwant study
my dream college is inti but is expensive
i think i wan study foundation in business..rm14xxx
n oni got march n july intake..if i miss march intake.i nd 2 choose july oni..
but feel like july 2 late..
if march this month muz register n pay rm8xxx(include hostel n register fees)
then,i go tell my parents..i feel like i gv them 'fu dan' dy..i feel like they cant afford the fees or mayb nd berjimat cermat 2 get this money..
i scare i waste their money..then i cry quietly after tell them..
now feel like got a big stone in my heart..
n i feel i crazy dy..always scare n think 2012 the world will end..m i 2 free n cause me think tat ??