Negative feeling (TT)

I don know how 2 describe my feeling now...
my feeling all is negative emotion now..
mayb is my fault..
but sumtime i feel tat i tersisir from my friend..i feel scare n sad n all negative emotion on my mind....n i still nd 2 show tat i don hv sad in front of them...i don wan make the situation b destroy bcs of my emotion..but sumtime this make me feel susah bernafas....
actually this is not their fault....but when they don pay sum attention 2 ,i feel sad n don know how...i feel tat i not so important 4 them although they don think like tat..
i nd 2 try hard 2 make fren with them...i don wan alone !!!!!!!!!
please....this is 1 of my hope in 2010 a...y can't make my wish cum true ????
try try try.............i must make this wish cum true..
HOPE....HOPE....HOPE